i tried to love you--
tried to look at you with those eyes you give me
tried to hold you as if my life, my sanity, depended on it
tried to kiss you as passionately, as intensely, as you did me
tried to fuck you while telling myself, "i love her, i love her, i love her"
tried to lie to myself.
but i cant lie to you.
i cant love you
cant look at you
cant hold you
cant kiss you
cant fuck you.